Monday, 11 October 2010

A sane curfew - one of my private tools of recovery

This is crazy: I want to say that one essential part of my recovery is going to bed on time. That is not crazy in itself, but the crazy bit is that I am writing this as I am 25 mins beyond my personal 'curfew'! (With 'going to bed' I mean: retiring to bathroom and bedroom and getting myself ready for the night).

I have been struggling with going to bed on time and getting up early in the past few days! And, boy, does it affect my sanity! Going to bed on time means also being ready to sleep, tucked up in bed, and taking a moment to connect with my Higher Power. Getting up early in the morning, about 7am, is my ideal, means that I have time to do my programme work, readings, prayer, food planning, a quick meditation.

Most of the time I am preventing myself from using this wonderful tool by watching TV, doing my e-mails, checking Facebook and, as right now, writing my blog.

And when I don't stick to these things that are good for me I give myself a hard time! This morning I got up really late, past 9am; only had a late appointment and was very tired, had not slept well. But because of the lack of spare time I only managed to do a quick food plan, that was it.

The other thing is that I get depressed when I get up too late. I think anything after getting up at 8am is really not good for my emotional wellbeing. Had an awful day today until I went to the park after my appointment and sat in the sun and walked.

Am grateful that the depressed state did not lead to eating more today!


  1. Yeah, this one is really hard for me. I get up every weekday at 5:30 to write and read in preparation for my daily 6:00 call to my sponsor. But I still am not going to bed until 12:30 sometimes! 5 hours is not enough sleep! It's been 65 days. Will I learn? What will it take?

    I just CAN'T go to bed early! There's another Tweet to comment on, another episode of Dexter to watch, another song to listen to, another post to write on my blog. Maybe I've delayed planning my food.

    My older kids don't even go to bed until 10 or 10:30! When's MY TIME??

  2. I so relate to this, Charlie! Am still working on it. Nice to find your comment here - I haven't looked at my blog for many months.